Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Missing Scan Day
Today should've been the next set of scans for Daddy. A snowstorm prevented us from getting out this morning. And watching Daddy being in so much pain has been killing me. With every move he makes, he is in excruciating pain... I just want to take all of his pain away ... Even if I had to bear it instead. I know that whenever we do get his scans done, that it is not going to be good news. When I try to be optimistic and tell him that people with his amount of cancer can live for years and years with chemotherapy... He tells me if he continues to be in pain and bedridden, that he doesn't want to live for years and years... My heart breaks. However, the optimism can't stop, he needs it as much as we do.